Life is Though

I sit here alone

I wait here alone

Silently and patient

Not a sound not a groan

Not a murmur 

Not a sigh

No movement 

No life

But then I hear

I hear it so clear

That sound that sound

That ringing sound in my ears

Boom Boom

Louder and higher

Bouncing around in my head

The sound, a girl, a crier.

My heart, racing

The blood rushing through my veins

the intensity, the feeling

The hurt, the pains

Its like a knife

Cold, sharp and strong

Digging into my flesh

Tearing apart my feelings, every last one

Drops of sweat running down my head

My eyes swollen like a wound

Yet this guilt wont seem to go

In my mind stuck, it just loomed 


I just want this weight to go
To be lifted from my shoulders
All my worries would be gone
The heavy weight like 2 large boulders

So I grabbed for the knife 
And looked at my wrist
The temptation was there
I took a deep breath and clenched my fists


I whispered a prayer 
Before I could think
I slowly stood up
In my skin in would sink


Before I could do it
Before I could blink
A hand reached out
And took my arm in a link


They made me realize 
I now understand
That our life is a precious thing
You just have to have patients to wait for the hand


Never even let it cross your mind
To take your own life
Everyday is a stuggle
But never reach for the knife


With a little help
And the strength to carry on
You can be a better person
The stars you can be upon

A poem for him!

Everyday is a struggle

How to have my hair, how to look

Even breathing and walking I find hard to do

But compared to the lasses you like, I'm muck!

I've fallen for you hard

Your eyes, your hair, your smile

The swag you have your so cool

But saying 'Hi' to you is like walking a mile

I melt like butter when I see your face

I get nervous and turn bright red 

Your like a daily fix, I cant go a day without seeing you!

But you and your mates wouldn't care if I was dead

A thousand bruises and scars

Gallons of blood I would bleed 

To know you cared

Your everything I need

I wish you could see

I wish you could feel

Everything I'm going through right now

But this broken heart will never heal

My bezzie Chaz!!!

The crazy times we have!!!

Harry Potter to Larry Dotter

Dancing in our rooms 

to singing the latest tunes

Running out in the garden in dark of the night

The clouds in the sky gave us a fright 

Her Dad pops his head up at the window

But me and her can find the light

We take the mick out of everyone

She tells me dirty jokes

Science is our enemy

We love the fit blokes

The sarnie situation 

Holy Island trip

Needing the toilet badley

and falling in a ditch

Massages on the trampoline

Summer barbeques

Rain ruins all our plans

Talks about cheap shoes

Singing through the phone

hope there's no hackers

they must think were weirdoes 

the 2 mad hatters 

Charlotte my babes, my hunn xXx

She is a friend too close to let go

The things we do no one must know

We are 2 crazy girls with a big heart

She is my world we'll never part

She is a gorgeous party seeker 

always looking for fun

she is the best at everything 

and she'll always be my babes, my hunn

We tell each other anything, everything

We are never scared

just 2 lasses from a small town

but if ya get on the wrong side of us ya beta be prepared

We have great banter

we laugh a lot

eventhough we fight

none stop

She is the best person anyone could wish for

a friend who's always there

a friend who you can rely on

a mate without a care

My little rebel Charlotte

I want you to know

you mean the world to me

and i love you so

HIM (a ballad)

He used to hate me but that was ok

I hated him back that was fine

He used to laugh at me and call me names 

He was just a waste of my time

I spoke to him for the very first time

He started with Hi, I said Hey

This chat was through our BBM 

And everything was going right that day

I felt a feeling stranger that ever

Butterflies lay in my tummy

A strange experience, never before

This feeling is kinda funny

I told him my secret he understood 

But  now the friendship was awkward

He promised not to tell anybody

In this I never looked forward

I know I love him I know for sure 

But I know he loves another

Someone more gorgeous and so beautiful

But now my face was to cover

The next day he never replied to me 

Even though I know we were friends 

It's making me sad, I'm starting to cry

He laughs while my broken heart mends