Life is Though

I sit here alone

I wait here alone

Silently and patient

Not a sound not a groan

Not a murmur 

Not a sigh

No movement 

No life

But then I hear

I hear it so clear

That sound that sound

That ringing sound in my ears

Boom Boom

Louder and higher

Bouncing around in my head

The sound, a girl, a crier.

My heart, racing

The blood rushing through my veins

the intensity, the feeling

The hurt, the pains

Its like a knife

Cold, sharp and strong

Digging into my flesh

Tearing apart my feelings, every last one

Drops of sweat running down my head

My eyes swollen like a wound

Yet this guilt wont seem to go

In my mind stuck, it just loomed 


I just want this weight to go
To be lifted from my shoulders
All my worries would be gone
The heavy weight like 2 large boulders

So I grabbed for the knife 
And looked at my wrist
The temptation was there
I took a deep breath and clenched my fists


I whispered a prayer 
Before I could think
I slowly stood up
In my skin in would sink


Before I could do it
Before I could blink
A hand reached out
And took my arm in a link


They made me realize 
I now understand
That our life is a precious thing
You just have to have patients to wait for the hand


Never even let it cross your mind
To take your own life
Everyday is a stuggle
But never reach for the knife


With a little help
And the strength to carry on
You can be a better person
The stars you can be upon