Life is Though

I sit here alone

I wait here alone

Silently and patient

Not a sound not a groan

Not a murmur 

Not a sigh

No movement 

No life

But then I hear

I hear it so clear

That sound that sound

That ringing sound in my ears

Boom Boom

Louder and higher

Bouncing around in my head

The sound, a girl, a crier.

My heart, racing

The blood rushing through my veins

the intensity, the feeling

The hurt, the pains

Its like a knife

Cold, sharp and strong

Digging into my flesh

Tearing apart my feelings, every last one

Drops of sweat running down my head

My eyes swollen like a wound

Yet this guilt wont seem to go

In my mind stuck, it just loomed 


I just want this weight to go
To be lifted from my shoulders
All my worries would be gone
The heavy weight like 2 large boulders

So I grabbed for the knife 
And looked at my wrist
The temptation was there
I took a deep breath and clenched my fists


I whispered a prayer 
Before I could think
I slowly stood up
In my skin in would sink


Before I could do it
Before I could blink
A hand reached out
And took my arm in a link


They made me realize 
I now understand
That our life is a precious thing
You just have to have patients to wait for the hand


Never even let it cross your mind
To take your own life
Everyday is a stuggle
But never reach for the knife


With a little help
And the strength to carry on
You can be a better person
The stars you can be upon

A poem for him!

Everyday is a struggle

How to have my hair, how to look

Even breathing and walking I find hard to do

But compared to the lasses you like, I'm muck!

I've fallen for you hard

Your eyes, your hair, your smile

The swag you have your so cool

But saying 'Hi' to you is like walking a mile

I melt like butter when I see your face

I get nervous and turn bright red 

Your like a daily fix, I cant go a day without seeing you!

But you and your mates wouldn't care if I was dead

A thousand bruises and scars

Gallons of blood I would bleed 

To know you cared

Your everything I need

I wish you could see

I wish you could feel

Everything I'm going through right now

But this broken heart will never heal